Hope

For the first time in my life
I have hope.
Hope that the future is going
To be better than my past,
Better than my present.

What life had put me through
Had me convinced
That I deserved nothing good.
That anything good
That occasionally happened
Had happened by accident.
That the good things in my life would
Go away never to come back.

But now I have hope.
Lame though it sounds
I have faith in a person whom
I have not even met.
A person who will care for me.
Someone who would never
Let go of me despite my idiosyncrasies.
Somebody who will love me
For who I am.
Somebody who will create so
Much faith for himself in me
That I can laugh at my own insecurities.
Somebody who will find my imperfections so perfect
That I can actually let go of the feeling of being inferior.
That I can be myself with him
And never have to fear abandonment.

Somebody whom I'd give my life for
For loyalty is in my blood.
Somebody, whom I will
Love, cherish and protect
For as long as I live.